most days i couldn't tell you two things about happiness other than sometimes i am, sometimes i'm not.
sometimes it's there. sometimes it's not.
but this morning, this morning happiness was the quick walk to the corner caffe. the white lunch bag with the bagel-and-egg sandwich. the plastic sip-cup of orange juice. this morning happiness was the quiet apartment and a song on repeat. it was the forgiveness i granted myself for the unmade bed and messy floor. the notion that everything--every action, every thought, every sideways glance is a prayer. distilled down, all is prayer, and i am changed by that. that thought, that knowledge, that eternal and ever-reaching love changes me. this morning happiness was the not-so-gentle sense that everything will work out. the turmoil of excitement sitting pit of stomach for a reason that i am not yet conscious of.
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i miss those plastic cups of OJ in NYC. my favorite street cart was on 17th and 1st. i miss those walks to work. i'd take a subway over my subaru any day.
i love a song on repeat, it's my fav thing to do. and i love a morning to myself, esp with a delicious breakfast :)
I can completely relate to what you're saying. I woke up feeling the same way, treated myself to coffee & a bagel, felt a hint of spring in the air (who am I kidding? That's wishful thinking). Happiness settled in.
I adore this line, " the notion that everything--every action, every thought, every sideways glance is a prayer. distilled down, all is prayer, and i am changed by that."
You're a talented writer and I love reading your words :)
Kristin Offiler
Each day is definitely a present. There are days when I just throw my hands up and want to give up but then again I think I have too many things to be thankful for and I shouldn't focus so much on the negative stuff. Each day is a present, another chance to do the things you love and to share some love with others. Have a happy day sweetie.
sounds like the perfect morning<3
oh the calm of the dawn! So beautiful!
Your morning was my yesterday. I woke up feeling a peace I hadn't in a while. Everything was right, and for no real reason at all. It just was.
so beautifully written!
Hi Meg,
I love reading this blog so much that it leaves me wanting more like it, but I haven't found anything that satisfies. Do you have any recommendations of fellow writerly young women?
Every once in awhile I have a morning like this, although I could never articulate it this well.
Love this, and captured so well with words.
Lovely.
This morning for me was one of stress and never-ending worry and anxiety at the office.
This passage of yours make me smile and calmed me.
And the bagel looks delish :)
i think waking up and reading this was the perfect way to start a day.
"Sometimes it's there, sometimes it's not" - that is so true.
love your blog!
I love your blog. I've been reading it for a long time now. You remind me of my best friend so much. SO much. With all the spiritual and love reflections on her life and love for books and writing. I just wanted to mention, that one of her favourite books (I enjoyed it a lot as well) is: "Etty Hillesum: An Interrupted Life the Diaries, 1941-1943 and Letters from Westerbork". (Apparently, it's not well translated, but still very poetic.)
I've probably said it before, but I feel like this post applies directly to my life. It probably does for everyone, now that I think about it.
For me, happiness today was breaking down a set for a school play with my two best friends. It's always the unexpected things that make you the happiest.
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