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5.03.2012

on the things they don't teach you in school.


at the age of twenty-one a famous american playwright with wide, strong hands will cup the back of your neck and in that instant illuminate sex as the space between absolute control and weak knees. let him. 

and then at twenty-six when a man pushes your hair behind your ear for the first time in your life, enjoy it. 

as you grow and mature the things you once valued will change and fall away. but they'll make perfect sense to the eight-year-old-version-of-yourself. and that's just as it should be. 

as it turns out, semantics is important. words have meaning. and slight shifts and small subtleties between the things do make a difference. 

don't trust anyone who doesn't know the meaning of doppelganger. or ellipses. 

one day you'll live in a neighborhood where a man walks around with a cockatoo on his shoulder and a woman on the local train eats a payday candy bar by pulling the large peanuts from her mouth and flicking them beneath her train seat. you'll wonder why she bothered to buy a payday? why not a snickers or three musketeers? this will be an appropriate question. 

one day you'll lose your favorite earring to the crevice of a man's couch. it'll be worth it. 

you'll find that water and trees and mountains and sand will satisfy you in a way that concrete sidewalks never will. and that's okay. there is a time and a place for both. 

you'll wake one morning, a product of all you've seen and done and known and you'll find yourself restored. childlike wonder in tact. the courage of your young self in tow. the deep-rooted belief in the beauty of all that's to come. and you'll continue on. because it's from there that you begin. 




23 comments:

Anonymous said...

Yesyesyesyesyes. These things.

Brissa said...

it's been a while since a piece of writing has rendered me speechless. this changed that.

katrina leigh said...

gorgeous meg.

Alexa said...

yes.

Claire said...

I like you so much. Thank you for writing with an intelligent voice about real things. So few people write about real things.

Also, your watercolor header is divine.

Robby Spratt said...

Hmmm...interesting reflections.
Are you trying to hint that there is a new man in your life? It kind of sounds that way to me.

meg fee said...

@robby: no, I almost never write about a thing as its happening, so no...

Rebecca said...

Well, very well said.

AshCall said...

So incredibly beautiful. You are so talented.

Diana said...

Love. That is all there is to say.

Erin said...

you write so intelligently, as though you've lived a lifetime already and yet you have so much left to experience. i love this about you.

stefanie hurtado said...

i think this is just what i needed.

lizzy said...

you are exquisite. utterly.

lcb said...

nailed it. last paragraph.

Freya Lily said...

You speak the truth my dear. I love the voice in your writing.

Morgan said...

yay. i love how your posts make me reflect and enjoy all i've encountered in my life

colleen said...

this is just perfect. I wake up every now and the like you said in the last paragraph - and then it slips away and comes back. here's to it coming back soon.

jkhdancer07 said...

What a beautiful piece of writing.

What font are you using? i love it.

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look a little closer said...

exactly what i needed. thank you.

Wandering Mind said...

This is amazing and lifts my soul. Thank you.

Sara said...

and begin again, and again, and again...

Mackenzie said...

this is just the best. and i cracked up at "one day you'll lose your favorite earring to the crevice of a man's couch. it'll be worth it. "

you, my friend, are fantastic.

katilda said...

"don't trust anyone who doesn't know the meaning of doppelganger. or ellipses." ...how true this is...