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6.09.2011

okay. i give in. the time is yours, good body, get better.

last month there was an incident with a gun. in which i found myself in close proximity to one. very close. not that it was pointed at me, or directed at me. but it was a loose cannon a mere three feet away from me.

and then last week i was nearly hit by a car. i heard the screeching of breaks and looked up the hill to see what had happened only to discover the bumper just a few inches form my legs.

and all i could think was... there will be a third. i am nothing if not superstitious. and things come in threes.

but camilla, bless her heart, told me these things weren't so much about near-death-experiences as they were a way for the universe to tell me to slow down, look around, take care--to look after myself.

and if that was the impetus--this slow down notion--then perhaps this flu has been the coup. the final third.

it came on so quickly. that was the startling, frightful part. it washed over me in an hour--less maybe.

but i've been feeling so strong lately, so healthy that i thought it wouldn't last. low fever? neck pain? tightness in my chest? they'll be gone in the morning.

and so i'd wake feeling better and set about cleaning my room because there was time--for the first time in a month and a half there was time! and i was not going to stay in bed wasting it. so i'd clean the apartment for fifteen minutes, get exhausted, lay on the couch and then (for the most part) go about my usual life. because the fever was so low. and really i was fine.

and soon the fever was gone. and i was well.

but new york got hot. (hotter than texas, hot). so hot that i missed the return of my raised temperature.

and so when i got home last night and thought, huh, i really don't feel well and did my little dance with the thermometer, i was forced to reckon with camilla's prophecy: i need to slow down. i need to take care. i need actually give my body this extra time i've found to be sick. to do nothing but lie in bed. and drink lots of water. and watch netflix on demand.

i can't worry about cleaning my room. or the apartment. or my desktop.

i just need to be sick. to give in.

of course i'm gonna go to the doctor first. because a week of a fever is a bit much, no?

31 comments:

Camilla Leila said...

:) yes meg, you deserve some time to just be.

i hope you feel better!

lots of love!

Elle said...

sometimes it's so hard to slow down!urg. hope you feel better soon.

fluroescent said...

It's just so hard to stop, isn't it. When you don't feel like you have enough time to start with.

I just recently had this same experience. Flu that kicked me down. The longer you fight, the longer it goes on.

Not easy for those who spend thier days resisting submission.

Take care, be well.

molly YEH! said...

isn't that great? the way your body waits for you to have free time and then gets sick? it's like it knows you're busy, so it just gives you the luxury of finishing what you need to get done, and then things set in. happens all the time to me :-( at least you didn't have to miss out on jobs and what not? now you actually have the time to relax!! so hop in bed, and shower us with more of your beautiful blog posts!

feel better :)

Rachel said...

Here's to a speedy recovery! And yes, I can attest that it's Hotter than Texas Hot!! Soaking it in while also simultaneously soaking my shirt. So sexy, but I'll take it over winter any day!

erin elder said...

I find it difficult to slow down as well. We all need to stop and slow down once in a while.. and when we don't listen, our body speaks to us.

I'm glad you're taking the time to get well. It sounds like you really need it!! Feel better soon!

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Laura Marie said...

Why are we always so in sync?! I just had a 5-day fever too... Apparently we share that whole "can't slow down"impulse :)

Feel better! Sending you good thoughts.

Robby Spratt said...

I hope you have a speedy recovery!

Brissa said...

a week is definitely too long for a simple fever. i hope the doctor works some magic and you get better pronto!

::: Wild lola/Naia said...

take care Meg, I hope you get better soon!

Chelsea said...

This is so true sista.
I need to be better at slowing down too.. that’s for sure. I always tell myself “tomorrow night ill relax”

I hope you feel better SOON. if it helps, last night I had to take Nyquil for my cold, nasal spray for my allergies, and numbed my whole mouth because of a toothache. This old age of 25 is kicking my ass.

Jennifer Rod said...

yes, do rest. it will do you good!

Alexandria said...

Taking care of yourself is definitely essential, and so easy to forget. Hopefully your doc helps you out!

Rachael said...

You poor thing! I hope you get better soon and yes, please go to the doctor.

Camilla sounds wise.

Alex said...

Get well soon, Meg! Give that body of yours some much deserved rest.

P.S. I'm trying to imagine hotter than Texas hot...just thinking of it makes me sad!

VibrantGrace said...

Meg, I hope you feel better soon! Praying for you!

Karen in Progress said...

Camilla is a wise woman. I'm glad that you're going to give in, slow down, and relax. Get well soon.

Daina @ New York State of Mind said...

It sounds like you definitely need some rest! Hope you feel better!

And, I think with this disgusting heat, everyone should be inside watching movies and drinking lots of water!

The Lewicutt's est 2006 said...

Feel better! My little one is feverish and threw up all last night. I feel your pain through her.

It's no fun! So, here's the mother in me... REST! keep hydrated and well nourished. :-)

becky said...

I hope you start feeling better, Meg. So sorry to hear you've been so sick :( And worse still about the gun. Gee, that must have been frightening.

Mackenzie said...

sending you lots of good vibes and hope you get well, dearest! xoxo

BrightEyedWashingtonian said...

I second McKenzie!
Feel better, chica! Just surrender and enjoy the downtime.

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luckisallugot said...

I hope you feel better soon! I've been sick with a fever all week, and have finally given into it. So here I sit reading blogs with my dog, who I suppose is more or less sleeping than reading, but give yourself some rest. Hopefully you'll be feeling better soon!!

Erin said...

Oh yes a week-long fever is too much. And there is nothing wrong with laying in bed and allowing your body to recover. I've learned this the hard way too... many times.

wildchild said...

oh my lanta, i hope you feel better soon. a week of a fever in an almost 100 degree city cannot be good.

Little Tree Vintage said...

I hope you feel better lady! the flu is the
worst :(

Jenni Austria Germany said...

netflix on demande is a cure-all, though, don't forget it.

Arianna said...

Sometimes its definitely hard to slow down. But you deserve some R&R! Hope you feel better!

Jenni @ Story of My Life said...

EEK!! Hope you're feeling better, love. Get lots of rest and oj and netflix this weekend! :)

Jessica said...

I had a high fever for a week with this darn flu that's going around, so don't worry too much! Hope you're feeling better soon!

Chelsea Talks Smack said...

aw darlin, feel better :( take care of yourself, lots of sleep and goodness and RELAXING.