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6.03.2011

my manhattan: (not the one i usually like to claim, but...)


to the 1 train

tourist shop

one way

late show

applejack diner

59th

last night the weather in new york was perfect. really and truly. it was my idea of perfect. cool but not chilly. breezy but not lift-your-skirt-up-gusts. 

so when i finished work i opted to take the long walk to the A train. and i opted to pull out my camera. 

it's not my favorite area to walk in and certainly not my favorite area to photograph. in fact, i often think the slogan for midtown manhattan should be "the loneliest place on earth"(that's a whole post unto itself) but i longed for the weight of the canon in my hands and around my neck (and because you know what they say about practice). 

i get frustrated when i have nothing to share on the blog. when i have nothing to say. no pictures. no witty comments or stories. because what this really means is that life has somehow stalled. life has ceased to challenge me--i have ceased to challenge myself. that there have been no new experiences or rather that i'm not in the frame of mind to identify the mundane for the unsolicited miracles they often are. 

does this make sense?

because sometimes, even in this state, i do have things to say. but i can't get the words out. and that's tremendously frustrating. the bottleneck of words sitting in my stomach.






ps: in other news, remember how i saw johnny flynn last saturday? and how i must have annoyed him to death with the 400 pictures i took. oh, poor johnny flynn. anywhoo, a lovely, young woman studying journalism was at the same concert--found my blog because of my 400 pictures and asked to write a story about me. and write a story she did. it's a multimedia piece--print, slideshow, video (of which i'm really self-concious about the plumpness of my face, sigh), and podcast. i think it turned out really well. 

see it here. (the slideshow, video, podcast are all links on the right of that main page). 

35 comments:

Jessica said...

you have a pretty talking voice!

Bree said...

NYC is so photogenic. I long to live there...

Ashley said...

Just got back from the piece - absolutely lovely! So glad that more people will be exposed to your story. :)

Jennifer Rod said...

congrats meg, the article was great. an you truly are an inspiration...

and about getting frustrated about not having anything to say on the blog, i totally understand.and i love this line, because we should never get here, right? ..."that there have been no new experiences or rather that i'm not in the frame of mind to identify the mundane for the unsolicited miracles they often are."

have a good day.

Vanessa said...

I know what you mean about those days when you have nothing to blog about. Nut that doesn't mean there's nothing going on in your life, those are the days when it's just life as usual... And there's nothing wrong with that :-)

Your pictures are great and make me long for New York!

Ashlee said...

Hot damn! (Just saw the photos.) There's nothing better than a soulful musician...who can play the trumpet, fiddle, and the steel guitar! What a cool brea for you - goes to show that when you do have those bursts of 'expression', you are an amazing photojournalist / writer.

Keiko said...

You're famous Meg! (a little joke my highschool friends and I would say whenever we were interviewed or were about to walk out on stage. They'd tell me, "you're famous Keiks!")

Your life is a beautiful portrait of what can be. You are a constant reminder of Rilke's words, "May we learn to love the questions themselves." You live in this way, and thus inspire me to. For that, I thank you a million times over.

wildchild said...

your photos are inspiring. i especially love the last photo of the street and the bikes. it's haunting.

i understand feeling like you're at a stand still. i did just a few months ago and it's the most frustrating thing. but going out and doing something to feel alive is the best way to challenge that feeling. challenge yourself and things will start to change.

and congrats about the article/slideshow/video/podcast :)

Leighana said...

Honestly, i think sometimes we have the same soul. Brilliantly written.

Stevie Leigh said...

I completely understand. My most profound fear is the inability to communicate.

You did a great job with this post, though :)

- S from Following the Walkers

Alex said...

Love the photos! Black and whites are great.

I think you look stunning in your video! That's as great article, too.

Jenni Austria Germany said...

your name is actually meg fee? i always thought that was too cute to be real. ahhhh!!

Jenni Austria Germany said...

P.S.

"The absence of limitations is the enemy of art." — Orson Welles

^^ one of my favorite screenwriting teachers loved that quote and now it's one of my favorites. i was reminded of it after reading the article and what you said about your director.

Robby Spratt said...

That was a great article about you! I loved watching the interview and actually hearing your voice! Great job Meg!

Kate said...

Congrats, that's so exciting! You deserve it.

Erin said...

I get frustrated too when I can't think of something to post on my blog. It makes life feel mundane. But you can't have good without bad, right? :)

And I LOVE the story about you and your blog. Congrats!

Joyous said...

stalled??? nope... the calm before the storm my friend... a storm that is going to bring in something exciting, new and brilliant into your amazing, artistic, inspirational life! xx
ps amazing photos!

d&d said...

so i ALMOST wrote "oh go get ugly!" but instead i shall say "gosh you are a beautiful lady"

Alisha said...

failing to communicate. failing to put thoughts into words. failing to live life. failing to challenge. these are the most things i am scare of. great post, sweetie!

congrats on the story. hopping on over there to see it for myself :)

Kristie Was Here said...

Great pictures and great interview! Thanks for sharing the link(s). I love your statement: "Who am I to say I've failed if I can't see the future." Such grace for yourself and others, and so much hope :)

Nicely done!

Maria said...

Your pictures are gorgeous. I love the interview. Perfect. Very well done!

Brittany said...

1. love the black and white.
2. totally understand that bottleneck thing.
3. can i tell you how graceful and pretty you are in that interview? well you are. i have a feeling that you are even better than your blog (which is saying something).

Alisha said...

PS. LOVED your story. loved reading more about you. first time reading about ned and fed. girl, you are my hero!!

Abi said...

I totally know what you mean about nothing to say on your blog! I feel like I have stalled for about a month now. By the way, I kind of wish I had your life haha I think living in New York (well I'm not exactly sure if that's where you live) but anyways, I think it would be so fun. You are lucky. And you take beautiful pictures. Keep it up, I love your blog :)

Sonja said...

oh my gosh! I love that video, and slideshow. It's so wierd hearing people talk whom you've only seen in photos! hehe.
You're so well spoken, I really liked the video clips!
And you're goooorgeous!
aaaaaand so are the photos you took of New York!!!
I've been dreaming of living in NYC more and more lately. I'm really hoping to at least visit again this year. :o)

.Jessica. said...

"because what this really means is that life has somehow stalled. life has ceased to challenge me--i have ceased to challenge myself."

I believe this awareness is half the battle. Imagine the people who have no idea they're living on repeat- your strive for more is what will guarantee a more fulfilling life. Or that's what I tell myself daily. =)

Feel better Meg!

Platypodian said...

beautiful shots!

Michelle said...

Love this blog! I just found it because of Johnny Flynn. Kinda weird. I saw him on Thursday and too 1100 photos so your 400 makes me feel a little better about that.

It was a great read, the story about you. No need to be self-concious.

Michelle
http://pietrosmomma.blogspot.com/

Ashley said...

Those are beautiful photos! New York and black and white photography go together like...something and something:) xx

dull boy said...

far out, you're famous!!

(and you sound as sweet as you look)

michal said...

I just watched the video, and I have a few notes:

a. I closed my eyes, and your voice reminds me of Drew Barrymore. That may not sound like much of a compliment but I think her voice is lovely.

b. GET REAL if you think your face is round/fat/pudgy. You are really really beautiful. Promise.

Jenni @ Story of My Life said...

"i get frustrated when i have nothing to share on the blog. when i have nothing to say. no pictures. no witty comments or stories. because what this really means is that life has somehow stalled. life has ceased to challenge me--i have ceased to challenge myself. that there have been no new experiences or rather that i'm not in the frame of mind to identify the mundane for the unsolicited miracles they often are." <--one of my favorite things you've ever written. I truly relate, and couldn't have put it more beautifully.

Also, just checked out your article, and WOW!!! How NEAT! That is, like, super legit. I'm impressed!! And your face and those adorable dimples look PERFECT, you silly girl! You are beautiful. The end.

:)

Brittan said...

that article is pretty awesome, meg! i'm so glad i got to go to that show. it was such fun. thank you!

your pictures are breaking my heart. i missed new york the minute i left and it calls me back louder every day.
i hope you're right that i'll be back.

feel better and be happy. things will start looking up soon! i have a meeting this week with a producer and i guarantee your name will come up. i'll keep you posted...

gypsy cab said...

i love these!

Jennifer M. said...

When I'm feeling less than inspired, I take the time to browse PInterest or YouTube and find something there that inspires me. It's okay to admire other people's art too and give yourself a break once in a while. Soon enough, your inspiration will come back full-force!