i almost started to cry yesterday, during work.
because working on a sunday is hard enough: i'm always most aware of my own family being elsewhere. and a not terribly near elsewhere, at that.
and because i've been working so much lately. and i've lost track of all days of the week. and i find i'm exhausted. all the time. and so my lenten resolution of keeping a clean living space has fallen by the wayside. and yes, yes, i know lent is over! but it turns out the resolution was quite helpful and kept me quite calm and so yes, i've decided to carry it into the rest of the year. after all, my corner castle is much more enjoyable when the bed is made and the trash is put away and i don't have dishes stockpiled on the bookcase.
and i meant to write this morning about man kryptonite, because i have indeed unearthed the thing and how cannot i not share that discovery? actually i've been meaning to write about it for a few days now--it's that exciting and dangerous--the power must be shared. but not today. perhaps, tomorrow? you'll meet me back here tomorrow for that? fantastic.
and i have little writing ideas typed into the notes sections of my iphone but that autocorrect was at it again leaving me with a note of no sense and i have this wily, little notion that the autocorrect transformed what i wanted to say into something of no meaning: Nick there in the evenings. that's what it says. but i have no idea who this nick character is or why i should feel the need to write about him? nick, nick! are you out there? who are you?
oh goodness this post itself is a thing of no sense. i have a long day before me. of one job beginning at ten followed by the closing shift at another which ensures at least a twelve/thirteen hour work day (this thought may have been the one to bring tears to the brink last night). am i complaining yet? i'm good at complaining.
i know. small fries, this stuff. small fries. and not forever.
because there is so much good for which i can give thanks. for the sun casting it's glow over manhattan on this day. for the promise of a meeting with an old friend tomorrow. for the concert on friday. oh, yes, and my family and my health and on and on...
happy monday, then. non?
5.09.2011
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Yes, Happy Monday! You will be in my thoughts and prayers on this long day of yours.
Which brings me to an odd/embarrassing little telling...
Last night I dreamt that I visited an Aunt who lives in Manhattan {note- I do not have an Aunt who lives in Manhattan}. And while I was there, I took a little stroll to see the sights and sounds on my own time. While walking past a quaint out door restaurant I heard two people speaking french to one another. This always slows me down and catches my attention {I love french}... Well, there you were, chatting, in french, to a very attractive man and there I was, staring at Meg, from the Wild and Wily Ways of a Brunette Bombshell! You caught me staring, and immediately knew who I was, stood up and we embraced. "It's so good to finally meet you!"
... And then, I woke up.
Aren't dreams a funny thing.
Looking forward to hearing about man kryptonite!
Small fries, and not forever!!
xoxo
Amber
i feel the same exact way. so overwhelmed from working too much and feeling the guilt of not spending time with the people I love...it's all about finding a balance, sometimes it can be an emotional road though. I've been there. I know it all too well.
oh I know how it is you wake up and feel like the world is falling apart... and they come like a rushing wind. Sometimes I think it is a thing of us girls... something we can't control like we cannot control crying. But then again we can remember the good things we have and know that we have a God who love us dearly and in these moments this is the only comfort! Well... I hope this Monday will get better and that this coming week will be filled with love and laughter!
Yes, happy Monday, indeed. Hold onto the promise of that meeting with an old friend and other things to look forward to!
I love that you refer to your apartment as the corner castle...
Just remember, Monday can only be 24 hours long and a good portion of that has already come and gone.
Do a little something to make you happy today.
You.Can.Do.It!
Happy Monday :)
Kryptonite eh? I will definitely be back tomorrow.
Sending you a soul sister squeeze from Canyon, Tx. (((Meg)))
Sending so many warm thoughts your way today!
If it makes you feel better, I had a bad case of the blues last night into this morning. I have no idea if it was on particular thing or tons of little things that had my emotions on a whirlwind rollercoaster, but I do know that the moment will pass. And I hope you're feeling much better soon too :)
I love your writing so much.
UGH! I know how it feels to work on a Sunday & to feel totally overwhelmed with a work schedule. I have come to the conclusion that the best thing to do, is just take it one day at a time. Have a happy Monday. Sending good vibes your way. xoxo!
You are adorable. Nonsense? Not at all. I love your writing :)
Giving thanks for the small things is what makes us appreciate life. Happy Monday indeed.
xoxo
Working on sundays definitely sucks! I hope this monday (and week) treats you better :-)
Thank you so much for your sweet comment :-)
Small fries.
Isn't that what our lives are? Just little piles of small fries here and there.
I feel the same way about writing. I have so many things I need to get out. I need to say. Give them life.
They are scattered in text messages to myself. Half concocted drafts. And post it notes on my desk.
I cant help but think If I wrote them other things would fall into place. The idea is either crazy or genius, I never know.
good luck with the rest of Monday.
♥ theMRS.
read about 5 things I learned this weekend HERE
small fries, yes. but anything that bothers or gets into the quick of your skin is big enough to write about. and i'm so, so glad you decided to write today. hope your monday brightened!
Hey:) Let me just start with saying how much I adore your writing style. I totally get what you mean. There is just too little time in a day and sometimes we all feel a bit blahh. You know, when I feel like that I usually make myself a whole batch of chocolate chip cookies after a long day and next morning I feel so much better! Promise:)Kisses!
Ps: Thank you so much for your sweet comments last week. They made my day:)
oh how refreshing honesty is, I have cried at work countless times...I hope your survived the day mostly unscathed. :)
happy monday to YOU.
we all have those days. i have them all the time.
I love this not so much that you had 5145 rambling thoughts running through your head and a 13 hour work day to look forward to, but that I've had those manic-like thoughts so many times before myself (maybe daily??), so all I hope is that regardless of the "small fries" just remember to breathe and that this won't last forever! That's really the only thing that helps me during times like that. =)
I'm very curious...what do you do for work? I go from one job to another in a day and it sounds like you do too. It made me curious like a monkey. ;)
Oh you poor thing :( No need to apologise, working too much is enough to make break anyone down for a bit. I hope you get some rest soon and some time to take care of yourself. xoxo
oh very well said! I have been feeling the same way! Maybe, it`s that weird time in Spring, where there is a need for something? Something being a change, new adventures, or whatever it might be. But you`re right, its just small fries. My boyfriend always says "take a deep breath and wiggle your toes" if feeling overwhelmed.
Oh, Mondays. You never know what they'll bring..
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