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1.17.2011

giving thanks.


let there be light

shooting in the bathroom

on the set

matt filming

i spent the last four days shooting a short ten minute film. and so when i said i was heading into the belly of the beast of fear--it was in the best possible way. a really, really good forward (albeit, sometimes terrifying) movement. 

and when it was all said and done, and as i took the long subway home from queens, i thought, i have no words for this. it was not the failure of words, nor their inadequacy--simply the absence of them. it was a calm and peace and utter stillness--a gratitude that filled me, of such depth as i've never felt before. gratitude for the countless mistakes and failures that led me to this moment. gratitude for a story that was not easy or simple and certainly not over. 

18 comments:

Kelly said...

yayyyy that is so exciting! What an awesome experience : )

ALFIE said...

when you can experience something that all at once makes you satisfied and hungry for more--- you've reached a place in this life that most people only dream about.

Tucker said...

Beautiful! Can't wait to see what's next for you (:

Laura Marie said...

So exciting! I can't wait to find out even more about it :)

And that absence-of-words-because-you're-all-filled-up-with-gratitude-and-there's-no-room-for-anything-else feeling?

The. Best.

Jenni Austria Germany said...

oooh.....this intrigues me.

AbbieBabble said...

Yesterday you told us that your friend had said you lead an "interesting" life. Based on all of your blog posts recently, and especially this one, I would argue that it's not "interesting," but rather really, really exciting. So much growth, so much forward momentum. Thanks for taking us along on the journey!

Alex said...

How cool! Can' wait to hear more about this :)

Ana* said...

How fun! I can't wait to watch it or hear more from you.

Rachael said...

Awesome! My sister was in a 10 min. film before too! Very cool.

communikate. said...

fantastic! so happy you're moving in the direction you're made for!

Shorty said...

Neat! I hope you get to post it eventually. :)

Robby Spratt said...

Will we get to see it online at some point?

A Serenade for Solitude said...

can't wait to hear about it!!

Jay said...

good for you!! hope we get a peak at the end result shen it's done ;) best wishes from norway

Brittany said...

I was wondering what you were referring to....but I'm so glad you ended up happy with it all and proud of yourself. Stillness is underrated, isn't it?

dull boy said...

....this is um,....ambiguous....i need to know more!

...like a rolling stone. said...

meg. so stoked you got such a chance and that you felt so overwhelmed with gratitude.
these moments make it all worth it to live something that isn't easy or simple, but so so worthwhile.
xo.

The Many Colours of Happiness said...

congratulations! that is so exciting :)