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8.12.2009

first love.

i think you can fall in love by yourself.

i did.

once upon a time i loved a boy. a man.

and much as i'm loath to admit it, a part of me will always love him.

but yesterday as i was sitting on a toilet, halfway across the world, with my pants pooled around my ankles and i looked up to see a film advert with his name on it, two thoughts crossed my mind:

1. if only i'd never met him

and

2. the world is much, much too small

16 comments:

Signorina Svizzera said...

I fell in love by myself- or rather I, fresh out of an all-girls school and totally innocent, fell for a playboy. But either way, I don't still love him- and yet, for me too, it is too small a world (and I wish I had never wasted my time). Eesh. I know how you feel!

kathleen said...

Wow. You are so many things and one of them is an amazing writer. Don't forget it.

Chelsea Talks Smack said...

oh this has been me.

orsoifeel said...

"i think you can fall in love by yourself."
i did too...
and to this day his name sparks the memories... the pain...

Carlita said...

the world is too small. but the again, it makes it feel more cozy.

love all your posts.

Ivy Morgan said...

beautiful

Kelsey said...

Its sooo crazy how small the world is sometimes. Awesome post.

Micaela said...

no way Meg!!! that's craziness.

much, much too small.

"if only i never met him"...

i often wonder if i'd be happier?

Hanako66 said...

I wonder the same thing, but I probably would be a different person if it weren't for him and I wouldn't have met the love of my life, so it is okay...

chicknamedhermia said...

The toilet probably isn't the best place to be for something like that .....

dramaspice said...

If I could only tell you how many times I think those exact same thoughts.. It's comforting to know I'm not alone in this small world that sometimes seems to big to handle.. I love your blog :)

RatalieNose said...

Taht's insane!!

Elizabeth Marie said...

Been there..well maybe not on the toilet but ya know what I mean.

You're incredibly talented lady.

jasmine said...

you know someone's a good writer when they can make you laugh and convey something sad, beautiful, and poignant all at the same time in just a few lines.


and obviously, i'm talking about you here.

Mary Grace said...

yes...I know how this feels.

Brittan said...

this made me feel a little twinge in my heart.