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4.30.2012

these are the ways to love yourself (forgive yourself).


forgive yourself the golfish laden tote. forgive yourself the full trash bag by the door. six flights of stairs, out the building, and around the corner is further to go than it was before. so let the trash sit there a little longer and forgive yourself this. forgive the mess and forgive the dischord it invites. forgive the feeling of discomfort in your now home and reconcile that you're almost there, almost out. but not yet. forgive yourself the days still to go.

forgive the days you lug around the camera and then can't be bothered to pull it out. forgive the mornings you shower only to climb back into bed, altering the ritual. forgive yourself for sometimes forgetting breakfast. or not making the bed. and forgive the anger you feel. the sense of betrayal. feel it. own it. that'll be the only way it'll shift and change and move on. forgive the loss of one-time-friends. people get older. they grow up and they change and they move and priorities shift and sometimes they move on without you. and that's okay.

forgive yourself the awareness of that which you don't know and know you don't know and know you want to know. this is not a bad thing.

none of it is a bad thing. life keeps going. more slowly than you might like, but it keeps going.


10 comments:

. said...

forgive yourself the messy closet, the unanswered emails, and the stained dress.

it does keep going, doesn't it? nice to be able to count on that.

Alivia said...

This had become a ritual for my self-deprecating brain. "Forgive, forgive, forgive," my heart says.

Shawnee said...

forgiveness...sigh.

thank you for this. xo

Kelsey P said...

My friend is presently in Jerusalem going to school, and, simple as it is, I think you might enjoy this post from him: http://hatpc.tumblr.com/post/22121244709/this-twenty-something-pastor-spent-the-day-walking

Ciara said...

"forgive the loss of one-time-friends. people get older. they grow up and they change and they move and priorities shift and sometimes they move on without you. and that's okay."

This is great. You remind me so much of my friend, keep going, you're doing great :)

http://chasingdreams-ciara.blogspot.com/

Kylie said...

Thank you for your post.
Sometimes it's hard to forgive yourself not because you did something awful, but because you just don't feel your deserve to forgive yourself.
I'm really appreciative of your words x

Mae said...

Thank you for this post. Really needed this. As always, beautiful writing.

jkhdancer07 said...

beautiful...so touching

Belinda said...

love this meg. i loved the previous "forgive yourself" post and now i find myself doing a little forgiveness ritual whenever i catch myself in a moment of self-loathing... "forgive yourself the 3am dinner, forgive yourself the sick day from work which had nothing to do with my physical health, but everything to do with mental health... forgive yourself because you are doing just fine..."

i love stopping by your blog meg. such sweet honest words.

xx bel.

Kelly Brooke said...

i love this. it hits home. thank you