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2.24.2012

a place to go forward from.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      my bed is unmade. the laundry is piled high in the corner. i've had more to drink in the last few weeks than i have in the last few years (keep in mind, that's not saying much, i'm not really a drinker. but still.). i raced through all of season two of downton abbey because pbs is only meant to have it online for like ten days more--most of that racing was done in the wee hours of the morning after long nights and longer days. i had my tarot cards read nearly a week ago and i keep thinking about it, which, as it turns out, was the one thing i was warned against--over-thinking (me, an over-thinker? nah). i cracked my iPhone two days ago, was nearly attacked on the subway (wrong place, wrong time. not to worry that'll be a story i'll give more detail when time allows), was half-jokingly proposed marriage to (i half-jokingly accepted), and when forced to answer, listed utah as my happy place (a park city ski vacation is just around the corner. but is there snow out there?).

 i didn't know i'd fall so desperately in love with being busy--didn't know i wouldn't mind having no time to myself in the morning, no time to leisurely enjoy my latte or read a book or sit down and put pen to paper. didn't know i wouldn't mind forfeiting certain things in exchange for others. didn't know i wouldn't mind leaving the house in the morning only to return eighteen hours later--too much of that spent on the subway. always too much on the subway. it's a whole different thing when you're busy with things that mean just a bit more.

i have friends who are doing exceptional things. tv shows and broadway productions and major motion pictures. friends who are getting engaged, married, having children. and so it may not seem like much, a tiny little play in a scrappy downtown theatre space. but after four years of not acting, well, it may not be a lot. but it's something.

20 comments:

jordan said...

Heya. I'm from Utah and we're still waiting a bit on snow, but I believe at least the mountains have enough for skiing. Fun!

Alexa said...

all of the friends i grew up with, and now a handful from college, are getting married and having babies. i am living in nyc and making books. sometimes it doesn't seem to compare. and yet. somehow it's the best, most right thing i can be doing with my life right now.

feel exceptional, meg.

Mal Mecham said...

If you are coming to Utah, I'm requesting a visit. Even if it means I have to take time off work or see you in the wee hours of the morning. I'm just sayin'.

meg said...

Downton Abbey is so good! My brother got me hooked and I finished both seasons in about a week. I was squeezing time in between anything I could, and it was so worth it.

colleen said...

until i had my first job in nyc and worked 100 hours a week, i never realized that being busy and working a lot is also fulfilling. i'm now down to 12 hours days but i have things to do after work and chores and dates and cookies to bake and i just love, love, love being busy. glad you found something that makes you feel the same.

Alivia said...

We all need these weeks, I think. I always write about how my slow, tea-drinking, book-reading mornings...but then again, I just worked six to seven days a week for three weeks and then when it finally slowed down, the slow silent time was more brilliant than ever before.
Glad you're loving DA; I can't get enough!

Ms. Chapatti said...

In comparison to others it may not seem much but in the grand scheme of you own life, it's huge!
and that is a very comforting thought, hold on to it.

Xteena said...

and it still seems like a lot to me! i am very impressed that you have the courage to do what you want and what seems right to you.

Brei said...

I just finished downton Abbey. I got hooked after hearing everyone I know talk about how amazing it is. I need the next season to start now!

Miss Wendy said...

I love that Utah is your happy place. I live here, and if you asked me, I would say New York is my happy place. Or the beach.

I consider you a friend, though we've never met, and I think you are doing exceptional things. You are an exceptional person too.

emilia. said...

gorgeous.

The Lewicutt's est 2006 said...

I love busy too. It's my life. It has been my life. It will be my life for the foreseeable future.

Glad to see you so full to the brim! :-)

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Jacob Phelps said...

sounds like you need a day to relax!

communikate. said...

i'm so glad to read that you're happy busy. being productive is one of the best feelings in my book.

and downton is just so good! i'm in denial that season three won't be out for awhile.

lcb said...

Oh, season two... I went out and bought the DVD last weekend because my internet kept slowing down when all I wanted to do was watch Mary & Matthew! One day later, I was finished. It sounds like you're enjoying the hectic times. There's an ebb and flow to it all, isn't there? I find myself forgetting to appreciate it while it lasts.

Lottie said...

It seems like you are loving being back on stage which is great!

I am not busy in the conventional sense so I always wonder if I would enjoy it or have got too used to following my own schedule.

Wandering Mind said...

you go, girl! :)

GiadaRose said...

I saw Spark today, and you were fantastic! You have such a lovely voice (as melodic as your writing is) and sense of timing. Amazing job!

haley said...

Glad you are doing something you love! Thats what counts!