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8.28.2011

sunday night, picture box.

kitchen

every once and again when the apartment is filled with cool air rolling in off the hudson, and all the lights are off, i pass by the doorless kitchen and have the thought, yes, that's the life i'd like to live one day. followed quickly by, yes, that's the life i'm living.

and then there's the hanging realization that life is full, already terribly full. and pregnant with possibility. and it feels like it's all getting a bit closer. the space between the now and all that i've ever dreamed of.

the gap is closing. and i'm simply along for the ride. and as long as i live fearlessly, it will arrive.

(easier said than done, of course. but the pursuit sure is a hell of a good time).

19 comments:

Taylor said...

So nicely put. Have to keep reminding myself of this as well.

Clementine said...

YES! of course. of COURSE. Seriously, you just wrote what I have been trying to sum up and come to terms with in myself for the past year or so. The space between IS getting closer. It's so thrilling and so terrifying. But, we wouldn't have it any other way. How boring would that have been... to have never had the space between...

Sonja said...

such a positive thought (such a well put positive thought).
i love that.

Sonja said...

PS glad to hear the hurricane was not as damaging as first expected!

The Many Colours of Happiness said...

I love this! It's all so exciting, isn't it? I think that feeling of possibility is one of the most powerful, exhilarating, wonderful things there is.

withoutizy said...

beautiful words! i love the ability we have to make our dreams come true

debbiecutieface said...

I love that feeling...that the life we've always wanted...is exactly the life we're living. It's so powerful.

paddle to shore said...

Very well said. I also like to believe I'm along for the ride in my life ... even though it's taking a while to get where I truly want to be. thank you for your words. Kim, xo

Miss Flying V said...

Yes, beautifully said!

Emily said...

I love the photo. I think it is because it reminds me of things I want for my life also. And your words are just the encouragement I need to keep bridging the gap.

BuoyantlyBlithe said...

Lovely photo and words. Your posts leave me in a trance often. Bravo

Lottie said...

That is so true and hopefully the gap is closing for me too xx

wildchild said...

isn't that the best feeling, when you're like i'm actually doing this! the thing that i've dreamed of is really coming true!

Little Tree Vintage said...

i can't wait to get to that place where i feel like the gap is closing..my gap is bigger than ever right now, trying to figure everything out. im glad things are coming together for you!

siddathornton said...

thank you for sharing this - it is a thought i have quite often. not word for word, but eerily similar.

& i love the shot of your kitchen window.

Kate said...

The hardest part is when you're so close to being there. It's almost worse than not being close.

Jasmine said...

Hope you'll arive at this point soon :)

Days Careen said...

What you wrote here reminded me of a quote I posted recently by a very interesting lady called 'Etty Hillesum':

‘In the past, I would live chaotically in the future, because I refused to live in the here and now…Sometimes I had the certain if rather undefined feeling that I would ‘make it’ one day, that I had the capacity to do something ‘extraordinary’, and at other times the wild fear that I would ‘go to the dogs’ after all…I refused to climb into the future one step at a time. And now, now that every minute is so full, so chock full of life and experience and struggle and victory and defeat and more struggle and sometimes peace, now I no longer think of the future, that is, I no longer care if I ‘make it’ because I now have inner certainty that everything will be taken care of. Before I lived in anticipation, I had the feeling that nothing I did was the ‘real thing’; that it was all a preparation for something else, something ‘greater’, more ‘genuine’…But that feeling has dropped away from me completely. I live here and now, this minute, this day to the full and live is worth living…and we know life, don’t we? We have experienced everything if only in the mind, and there’s no need any longer to hang on for dear life.’

Mackenzie said...

oh i need this one printed on my wall. sometimes i feel like i'm inching so close to that, and then something swoops in and distracts me. here's to getting there, my dear. xo