she wanted to shout out across the room to him.
i know, she wanted to say. i know i'm not good at this.
she needed to be heard above the people and commotion and muddled hysteria.
needed to cast her voice out. a fishing-line of wanting.
i'm not good at this. and i know i'm making it hard.
i know that we meet each time anew. each day, as strangers.
but it's because i'm terrified. and enthralled.
exhilarated, even.
and i don't know... what...you are.
and yes--yes, of course!--i want to swim in your unknown. but i need you to invite me. to reach for my hand, grasp for my hand--feelingly--and pull me in.
that's what she would say. if ever she found her voice.
17 comments:
i absolutely love this.
beautiful. i adore the title.
MEG, i'm totally feeling you right now. and the way you express things is wonderful.
Wow. I recognize the feeling. Beautiful.
you really are a magician with words meg! this is just, wow.
This post? Is perfect. So lovely, Meg.
"i need you to invite me. to reach for my hand," that line is perfect.
YES.
oh my gosh, i liked this...and then i read the title and i loved this.
Oh, honey. That's beautiful. I'm trying to find my voice right now and this is exactly what I want to say to him.
Freaking love that.
you should seriously win something for being such an amazing writer. this was beyond beautiful and so easily something i relate to. thankyou times a million.
as i was reading this i was picturing it perfectly.
i love that you tagged this "different than a crush." yes, oh yes. this reminds me of a boy i met on a train from chicago whose name i don't remember, who may be my soulmate, and i have no way of finding him. it was the most romantic encounter of my life.
This is just so apropos for this moment in my life. So very exact.
i wish i could write out all your lovely snippets (in beautiful handwriting, of course) in a little notebook and have them on hand when i need to remind myself to be brave or to try to explain to someone why i am the way i am. you get it.
how haven't i heard this before? heard. as in.. yes, your voice. (i presume). this, meg. this, must be the reason you are an actress. on top of thousands of others. this voice. goodness. thats all it is. goodness.
xo
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