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10.21.2009


i left my job on tuesday, hating it so much i thought i might be sick.

i am a hostess. in a restaurant. 

enough. said.



i don't want things to be too easy. 

too easy means too comfortable and too comfortable is like some kind of small death.

but sometimes i wish certain things were just a tad easier

and while i'd like to quit. immediately.

i should probably wait until the exterminator comes on friday and then i get to put my room back together and for the first time in near a month live like a normal person. that will give me some perspective.

because much as i hate my job... at least it gives me the time and leeway to figure out just exactly what i might like to one day do.

i don't have to love this job. i don't have to be good at this job. i don't have to like everyone i work for or with. i just have to tolerate, persevere, and see it all as practice for inevitable domestic house-wife bliss that awaits (tongue and cheek, tongue and cheek. because i clean tables and carry dishes most of the day? and vacuum, lord knows how i love that).




brgh. this mood will end along with the bed bugs, yes? someone please say yes.




ps: ladies, ben (featured below) is taken, but don't worry, when i meet a guy, i'll let you know. 

21 comments:

Elizabeth said...

it will end. it has too. and as anne shirley would say... tomorrow is a new day.

Christina said...

It must be something about working in restaurants! I know the feeling all too well.

Belen said...

"i just have to tolerate, persevere, and see it all as practice for inevitable domestic house-wife bliss that awaits"

THAT'S WHAT I KEEP THINKING TOO!!!

i'm annoyed with working at starbucks and tired of college. but i tell myself it's all part of the process. :)

hope all is well,
belen ♥

Fairfield said...

i feel ya

jasmine said...

YES! the mood AND the bed bugs will end. very very soon. i'm so happy the exterminator is coming! (warning: i don't know if you know this already or not, but there's a chance he's gonna tell you that you need to replace your bed...my friend brought bed bugs home from cambodia, and they had to replace all the beds in their house. fingers crossed this doesn't happen to you!!! i will be praying for you, meg.)

Brittan said...

this too shall pass. it always does.

Courtney said...

I feel your pain. I work at a restaurant too. Let me rephrase that- I work my butt off at a restaurant too. Tonight I was running around like mad, trying to please the customers, all the while thinking- I hate this job. And at this moment, I hate my life.

It just doesn't seem like it's worth it sometimes, does it?

brown eyed girl said...

Oh I have such a love-hate relationship with restaurant work.

yes, the bad mood will end or at least be significantly lightened once the bed bugs are gone forever!

Karls said...

As long as it's a means to and end... Think you should read my blog entry today - it's quite fitting!

http://karlosophies.blogspot.com

Spardha Malik said...

YES YES YES!!
It'll end. It'll go!
slow down you crazy child...

Spardha Malik said...

YES YES YES!!
It'll end. It'll go!
slow down you crazy child...

olivia rae said...

it'll pass it'll pass!! always does!! you're adorable meg fee!!!!!

xoxoxo

Morgan said...

I totally feel you. But you're doing the smart thing and waiting these feelins out so you can find the right next path for you!

Mollie McCormick said...

you basically just wrote exactly how i've been feeling (minus the bed bugs)...it will pass! it must, it must, it must!

JKreids said...

as cliche and simple as it sounds, it's true:

THIS TOO SHALL PASS.


:) Keep on truckin'. I've found that when life is easy, you're not growing. These are growing pains, Meg.

Emily said...

I hate my job too and am going through a tough time lately as well...and somehow when everyone says that "this will pass," it doesn't always make me feel better. I want it to pass now! I'm not sure when this dark time will end but I just try to take it moment by moment and do little things like take a walk in the sunshine, call an old friend, or watch my favorite movie to make the time a little easier. I wish you all the best as you navigate these rough waters! Your blog is beautiful and you have such a writing talent so feel good about that at the very least!

CrowNology said...

Yes.

Mary Q. Contrary said...

I actually just recently quit my job because of how much I hated it. I worked at a call center for a bank and it was just people constantly yelling at me. I really couldn't handle it. So this past Monday I called them and said I won't be coming back. Yea, I said that without a back up plan or job lined up. Not the smartest thing to do, I know. But I realized that the only reason I was at that job was because it paid well. Personally, I discovered that I don't care how much a job pays anymore. I just want to be at a place with tolerable people and a nice atmosphere. I have an interview tomorrow at a shoe store! haha. What more could a girl want?

But that's just me. To each their own. I hope everything works out with you and I'm sure things will get better when the bed bugs finally move out. =)

Hanako66 said...

why yes of COURSE it will!

beatrice said...

aw, pretty soon everything will be great, because you deserve something and everything great! i don't mean to sound like the accursed dr. phil, i really mean it. i've been lurking (uncreepily ;) here for a while, reading your blog and i love it so much! it's been helpful in fighting off bill, whose role models are neds and eds.

- claire, or beatrice, at tohearwitheyes.blogspot.com

RayRay said...

can i quit my job if i don't love it, but it also doesn't give me the time that I need to do the things that I want (like writing more for example... and working out... and reading...)??

Because I think I'm 2 days away from doing just this.