tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6155538679069971441.post3594739219628693157..comments2023-09-09T06:12:36.477-04:00Comments on the wild and wily ways of a brunette bombshell: the white flag.meg feehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16588092985523441189noreply@blogger.comBlogger21125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6155538679069971441.post-67642403018112463022010-07-12T03:14:21.487-04:002010-07-12T03:14:21.487-04:00I know I'm still new to your blog, but I just ...I know I'm still new to your blog, but I just wanted to tell you that this post is one of the most beautiful things I have ever read. You are a remarkable person and I have confidence that you can overcome anything. :)Spratthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01016273510706173101noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6155538679069971441.post-47886108820462538812010-04-21T17:04:20.386-04:002010-04-21T17:04:20.386-04:00these sorts of things never respond to logic or ra...these sorts of things never respond to logic or rationality and they definitely don't give a damn about other peoples experiences yet i know it does me good to hear it anyways. and well - i can't help sharing it so here it is...<br /><br />i was overweight growing up and longed to be skinny. Later in life - i got closer but in an unhealthy way. And as it always goes- i still thought i was fat and so ned became my best friend too (he truly gets around that whore). That lasted intensely for more than a few years. Then it lasted somewhat mildly for many more. At some point, he seemed to leave me for good. <br /><br />And here I am now without so much of that struggle yet not naive enough to think that he wouldn't come back but the thing is. and the thing i want you to know is....<br /><br />Right now i am thin. I am actually little. Not like when you're slightly below "average" and mom/grandma exaggerates and says "oh you're so tiny you don't have to worry about eating that piece of cake" and you just let it go 'cause they always use superfluous words carelessly like that. No, not like that. I am actually quite Little. And ya know what....<br /><br />It didn't change a single thing about my life. Nothing. Nada. In fact- when i think of the times I was pursued by a boy or was in a relationship..EVERY TIME i was actually on the heavier end of the fluctuation. I buy sizes i never thought i'd wear. I look better in my clothes. Yet i am still sometimes anxious, worried, tired, lonely, discontent.... none of that changed.<br /><br />It's hard to know...to really know.... but it truly is about our hearts and about Christ and about getting our minds off of our selves. 'cause it won't make you happy. i promise it. i guarantee it. it absolutely will not make you happy. it will not change your life. <br /><br />But freedom. Freedom will. <br /><br />And that's the real kicker...that the only result of keepin' ned around is further enslavement. He will always always always keep you from freedom and joy and selflessness. Always. He will always keep you from even a chance of a changed life.<br /><br />(ok and now time for my disclaimers: i know it's not so easy to get rid of ned. i don't mean to make it sound like it is. and i'm not sure it's possible without Gods help. Also- i am glad to be healthy and i won't deny that i def. like being thinner than i was. i don't mean to say that being more healthy and in-shape and more as God created you is bad. it definitely isn't -- and i can't be certain but judging from your pictures, you actually look pretty healthfully thin too --but it just didn't give me what i was looking for. It didn't really change my life. It wasn't as huge as a thing i thought it would be. it was just "nice" and "nice" certainly isn't worth the desperate obsession and fight i had engaged in)<br /><br />I hope that helps even a wee little bit. I just want to put flesh and real life/real experience on the platitudes we hear all the time...on the things we're supposed to believe but can't. I hope you believe me...especially when the lies are filling your mind. They are lies. i promise.erinhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17727764952024965906noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6155538679069971441.post-15388710545245109562010-04-06T01:37:52.874-04:002010-04-06T01:37:52.874-04:00I love the way you write fee fee! It makes so much...I love the way you write fee fee! It makes so much sense, i feel like your talking right to me! I think you are so beautiful and amazing! A true inspiration. I love you very very much xoUnknownhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05217577344744621033noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6155538679069971441.post-37576665984730179332010-04-01T22:09:45.438-04:002010-04-01T22:09:45.438-04:00whoa... go meg!whoa... go meg!Elizabethhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08960560428297393947noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6155538679069971441.post-80592489791435126072010-04-01T18:18:40.644-04:002010-04-01T18:18:40.644-04:00you're so lovely, meg. :) and it's going t...you're so lovely, meg. :) and it's going to be a lovely spring. i'm excited for this part of your journey... and i miss you.alishahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08936141132737548276noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6155538679069971441.post-1185631446492120092010-04-01T13:19:57.923-04:002010-04-01T13:19:57.923-04:00I really struggled with an eating disorder in high...I really struggled with an eating disorder in high school. i remember my boyfriend looking at me and saying "you're all bones. you're not even yourself anymore. you think that's attractive!?" and i wanted to die. its like life coming back when you begin to like your body. i'm still working at it - with you. it's a wonderful thing. life is messy, glad you're honest about the messiness. you're beautiful, i love reading what you have to say.Shanleyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12446278667939632780noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6155538679069971441.post-24326671248995512522010-04-01T11:55:40.889-04:002010-04-01T11:55:40.889-04:00thank you again and again for your honesty. its go...thank you again and again for your honesty. its good to see real poeple out in blog land.Mrs. Blimeshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02052642841712667134noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6155538679069971441.post-59180329043742095162010-04-01T11:50:35.150-04:002010-04-01T11:50:35.150-04:00I do hope you write a book one day.I do hope you write a book one day.Brittanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00692984513903377686noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6155538679069971441.post-22813870887532667912010-04-01T11:42:24.583-04:002010-04-01T11:42:24.583-04:00absolutely beautiful... im inspired (though a bit ...absolutely beautiful... im inspired (though a bit afraid)- to stand in front of a mirror and not try to see thin/chubby, fit/sloppy, but just see shapes. <br /><br />stay tuned...heisschichttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10616803641907511357noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6155538679069971441.post-39130643970202364242010-04-01T10:36:25.901-04:002010-04-01T10:36:25.901-04:00Beautiful, as always.Beautiful, as always.Erinhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03610469765465154107noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6155538679069971441.post-16228701648519744722010-04-01T10:31:40.112-04:002010-04-01T10:31:40.112-04:00This made me cry... last year I wrote a short stor...This made me cry... last year I wrote a short story about a girl with an eating disorder looking in a mirror and it won a contest - the judges commented on its raw honesty, the "strange lens" of those with the disorder. and in my mind i'm thinking "strange? oh judges, dear judges, you have no. idea."Laura Mariehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03827448388438564161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6155538679069971441.post-77660173035654102602010-04-01T09:58:23.667-04:002010-04-01T09:58:23.667-04:00Thank you for writing this.Thank you for writing this.jennahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11348689568073335317noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6155538679069971441.post-26399541003845961232010-04-01T09:48:54.532-04:002010-04-01T09:48:54.532-04:00This is a beautiful post. You are so brave! Thank ...This is a beautiful post. You are so brave! Thank you.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6155538679069971441.post-44240028057926924402010-04-01T03:20:39.637-04:002010-04-01T03:20:39.637-04:00Your description of that battle between the thin l...Your description of that battle between the thin lie and the surrender is so incredibly true and well-said. Thanks for articulating something that so many of us have struggled to put into words.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6155538679069971441.post-22728176888924440572010-04-01T01:10:59.188-04:002010-04-01T01:10:59.188-04:00:):)Fairfieldhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08537050439966602501noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6155538679069971441.post-88984524480128463222010-04-01T00:42:29.218-04:002010-04-01T00:42:29.218-04:00You are one brave girl. Mirrors are scary things.You are one brave girl. Mirrors are scary things.Shannonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06922455587807255259noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6155538679069971441.post-50339735754602754452010-04-01T00:04:55.805-04:002010-04-01T00:04:55.805-04:00so brave - even when you don't feel braveso brave - even when you don't feel braveKristinhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09798637571482543428noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6155538679069971441.post-77432493780632313692010-04-01T00:00:15.031-04:002010-04-01T00:00:15.031-04:00Meg, this is huge! I really feel for you, in many ...Meg, this is huge! I really feel for you, in many ways. Thank you endlessly for sharing your story and congratulations!Taylorhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03667089316081949532noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6155538679069971441.post-15169292021008018062010-03-31T23:01:52.886-04:002010-03-31T23:01:52.886-04:00"All of our reasoning ends in surrender to fe..."All of our reasoning ends in surrender to feeling."<br />-Blaise Pascaliheartkiwihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16826856044690823004noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6155538679069971441.post-13943457549873117162010-03-31T22:39:48.844-04:002010-03-31T22:39:48.844-04:00You're words are always so incredibly powerful...You're words are always so incredibly powerful. I've gone through something similar before, and I wish you nothing but the best. Hold you're head up high because whether you see it or not, you're gorgeous. Thanks for this!Melissahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05198570733919511201noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6155538679069971441.post-74164402505263033642010-03-31T22:38:06.071-04:002010-03-31T22:38:06.071-04:00Truly inspirational.Truly inspirational.Candicehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08416924912350238847noreply@blogger.com